God's Child

This weekend my mom and I went looking for a few things for Christmas. One of them was an ornament for the baby we miscarried. It was very sweet of her to think of that. It hadn't crossed my mind and meant a lot to me actually. So, we had looked at a few and then came upon this ornament. I don't know if I would buy this ornament for any other child but the one God took early. It seemed perfect to me. The reason it is blue is not because we thought it was a boy but because last we knew it was the size of a blueberry and so we kind of go back to that when thinking of that time.

My mom asked what I wanted to write on the back of it (b/c we have an ornament from every year of our life that is written on)...My first thought was "we found out we would miscarry on May 18 so I guess May 2009"...and then it hit me...May 18? Really?...let me double check my calendar, so I did. Yep, May 18. Now, as I have proclaimed over and over through the last 2 years and have tried to believe whole heartedly in is "The Lord Gives and He Takes Away". The reason the date May 18 hit me so strong is because our current baby is due May 19.

The Lord did not have to orchestrate things in such a way to work out as they did. The current baby could have been due on any other day, we could have lost the other one on any other day but that isn't what He intended. We will forever have a reminder of the Lord's faithfulness, once again, during the month of May. When he turned mourning into dancing, a crown of beauty instead of ashes, and a garment of praise instead of the spirit of despair. And as we read the day we had a little ceremony back in May, Isaiah 35:1-4 was also written on the back of the ornament.

So sweet. Thanks Lord....and p.s...there is a bloom on our tree this morning. A blue bloom :)