On Saturday we had a little gathering to plant a tree in memory of the baby. Trust me, I used to be a person who would not have understood all of this but now I truly do. Blake and I decided to plant a tree called The Rose of Sharon. It is a smaller tree, it won't get very big but niether did our baby. We chose it because it is mentioned in Song of Solomon when describing Christ's relationship with his bride, it's meaning "consumed of love" and because of its mention in Isa. 35:1-2. The passage is speaking of coming out of the desert and parched land, how the people will soon be glad, they will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus (another name for it) they will burst into bloom and rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the Lord, the splendor of our God.....We also chose it because of it's purple/blue blooms. The last thing we knew, our baby was the size of a blueberry so we thought it was fitting. We also had those who wanted to, write letters to the baby so we could plant them with the tree.... 
Next Blake and I planted the tree while our family watched. Blake made sure we had flowers and mulch to make it look perfect after we had planted it. He is so thoughtful. I can tell you it felt so great to be able to do something sweet and meaningful and life giving to honor our baby. It was great to plant the tree and actually help move the soil over the roots, to work at it, to give life to something. We wanted a beautiful sweet reminder of this time in our life.
Our family was able to attend. It was really special to have my Granny with us who happened to be in town and Lindsay who also had a trip already planned for this weekend.
This is my mom, Granny and me in front of the tree. A picture of generations. I love my mom and granny and think they are beautiful. My mom came and stayed with me for a few days this past week as the miscarriage began. I can't tell you what a blessing it is to have your mom take care of you! Thanks momma.
After we planted the tree we went inside and prayed. My dad shared Isaiah 35 with us as well speaking of coming out of the desert which we most certainly feel like we are in, and one day rejoicing and shouting for joy....We then went back outside so Blake and I could let go of 7 balloons. It symbolized the 7 weeks we knew our baby. We released the balloons as a goodbye and as a symbol of physically releasing this to the Lord.
It is wonderful to have our new tree out front to look at when we come home. I will tell you the day we came home after hearing we would loose the baby we felt like we had come home from the hospital without a baby. A tree will never replace a baby but it is a physical reminder of something that is alive and beautiful that represents the life the Lord did give us for a short while. We are still on this journey and some hours/days are much harder than others. We aren't through this by any means but trying to walk forward having Faith the Lord will pull us through. I love the tree, it is perfect.
On Saturday we had a little gathering to plant a tree in memory of the baby. Trust me, I used to be a person who would not have understood all of this but now I truly do. Blake and I decided to plant a tree called The Rose of Sharon. It is a smaller tree, it won't get very big but niether did our baby. We chose it because it is mentioned in Song of Solomon when describing Christ's relationship with his bride, it's meaning "consumed of love" and because of its mention in Isa. 35:1-2. The passage is speaking of coming out of the desert and parched land, how the people will soon be glad, they will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus (another name for it) they will burst into bloom and rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the Lord, the splendor of our God.....We also chose it because of it's purple/blue blooms. The last thing we knew, our baby was the size of a blueberry so we thought it was fitting. We also had those who wanted to, write letters to the baby so we could plant them with the tree.... 
Next Blake and I planted the tree while our family watched. Blake made sure we had flowers and mulch to make it look perfect after we had planted it. He is so thoughtful. I can tell you it felt so great to be able to do something sweet and meaningful and life giving to honor our baby. It was great to plant the tree and actually help move the soil over the roots, to work at it, to give life to something. We wanted a beautiful sweet reminder of this time in our life.
Our family was able to attend. It was really special to have my Granny with us who happened to be in town and Lindsay who also had a trip already planned for this weekend.
This is my mom, Granny and me in front of the tree. A picture of generations. I love my mom and granny and think they are beautiful. My mom came and stayed with me for a few days this past week as the miscarriage began. I can't tell you what a blessing it is to have your mom take care of you! Thanks momma.
After we planted the tree we went inside and prayed. My dad shared Isaiah 35 with us as well speaking of coming out of the desert which we most certainly feel like we are in, and one day rejoicing and shouting for joy....We then went back outside so Blake and I could let go of 7 balloons. It symbolized the 7 weeks we knew our baby. We released the balloons as a goodbye and as a symbol of physically releasing this to the Lord.
It is wonderful to have our new tree out front to look at when we come home. I will tell you the day we came home after hearing we would loose the baby we felt like we had come home from the hospital without a baby. A tree will never replace a baby but it is a physical reminder of something that is alive and beautiful that represents the life the Lord did give us for a short while. We are still on this journey and some hours/days are much harder than others. We aren't through this by any means but trying to walk forward having Faith the Lord will pull us through. I love the tree, it is perfect.
5 comments:
Erynn, thank you for sharing this. I pray that the Lord bless you and Blake, and keep you... May He shine His face upon you and give you peace.
I pray blessings over you. Thanks for sharing your experience and heart. I LOVE to read your blog.
still praying!
There will come a day...He promises when you will celebrate.
dad
EB,
I love you! What a sweet thing for you and Blake to do. I am so glad your family was able to be apart of this. You are a strong woman of God and I pray that God continues to heal you and that you will blessed beyond what you could ever ask or imagine.
Jed
I'm proud of you...through vacations AND the rides home...through losing and planting...your focus and understanding of God's Word, your family life...I could go on too long. You break my heart...love hurts! It's worth it...I love you.
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