I believe I have officially meditated on my last post long enough. I love when I find something I can read over and over again and feel like the Lord reveals something new each time-using the same words.

I have read over something else as well. I'll share a little bit here:

Start with Ephesians 3:20. This was the verse I read on Thursday. This was after a somewhat emotional day (for no good reason). After spending time with the Lord, feeling like a change was coming-not physically, but spiritually-my heart and soul. Feeling like I could actually believe and be thankful and hopeful in it. He no longer wanted me to think of myself as the way I did, but as His child. To breathe in and know change was coming and it was from Him-the mighty one, my savior. He spoke to me in a variety of ways that day, TYL.

So back to Ephesians 3:20 "Now, unto Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us." (if you are from the C.O.C-you know that song). From the very beginning of this read I knew the Lord was speaking to me. I wasn't sure I could believe the words but at the same time, knew I had to, needed to and that I would have to hold on tight.

Under the scripture it says this (in my book I'm reading):

You need to repent of a fretful, fearful heart.

You worry so over problems. You loose sleep.

Your eating habits are poor. Your body hurts.

You ask friends what to do, and others to pray for you....

THEN you come to Me and say "Let your will be done."

I told my disciples and I tell you, that I give you the power to tread on serpents and scorpions....

I have given you power and love and a sound mind, not a spirit of fear. My will is that you know who I am, that you love Me, and that you grasp this truth: You are more than a conqueror through Me. I give power to the faint and to those without might I increase strength.

I pray each one of you know these truths. Please pray that I would hold onto these truths day after day. I think I am taking steps in the right direction, in obedience and only by obedience with His strength. I have prayed and prayed that He would carry me through this-that I would not be able to look back and see my footprints but His and know that He carried me (that is the only way I'll make it). I also start a bible study this week with other women going through infertility- I pray also that the Lord will use this in mighty ways. Thank you to all who do keep us in your prayers. It means more than the world to me.

* If you are also wondering what you can be in prayer about for me physically- I want my cyst to go away and for my body to start a new cycle. Please pray it happens this week.